“It’s made me more morbid. My husband will come home and I’ll be crying and he’s like “what happened?” and I’m like “you know I’m gonna die some day and he’s gonna be left all alone” and he’s like “omg you can’t think like that”. I had a really hard hard time with intrusive thoughts. Postpartum anxiety. I had to go to therapy for it and one of the things I learned [to help] intrusive thoughts was it’s an actual moving meditation to say “I’m not going to make meaning of that thought”. It’s easy to meditate when you have quiet and no kid but taking that practice, that’s what it’s about right, moving it into real life even if it’s really hard – it kind of takes it to the next level.”
Barrett Prendergast of barrettandtheboys.com talks about her experiences within Motherhood.
“Monumentally. To make that decision took a lot for me, number one. It really was a decision that I felt was the best for the whole family and that was pretty radical to be able to make that decision and know that I was doing it as a service to each and every one of us to be able to have a more healthy relationship. When you are divorced you’re sharing children and so there was a point where I got to have that time alone and that time I would really devote to my self growth, to my self exploration, to having fun myself, to really kind of discovering myself more as an individual and then in that time that I had with them really, really focusing on them and making the time more about them. It also taught me to look at challenging aspects as my greatest teachers” xo
“Something that is super important in our family is an openness to talk about things that need to be honored and celebrated – all the positive things. But also talking about all the hard stuff and difficult conversations and problems and failures and we do that pretty openly now but I have a 4 year old and a 2 year old. And so I want that to continue and I just feel like that gets harder as you get older and there’s more – there’s like a sense of independence and privacy but I also want there to be an openness and I want my kids to come to me with all their stuff and so I worry about what that looks like. I don’t want that wall to go up.”
“When I was pregnant with Meyer we got bad news when it was the 20w scan. They found a little bump on his spine and kind of fast forward, everything’s okay now but he has this type of spina bifida that we were not expecting. You know, as a mother you just want the best and the best chances for your child especially when they’re babies. You want to give them the best chances that you can and to like, process it myself, taking my own struggles or my own fears or worries out of it for him to show him that it’s going to be okay.” (Watch the full video for more)
“Probably the hardest day to day task is just keeping up with the correspondence and trying to continue to be a good friend and a good sister and a good employee and a good all of that. Like really trying to be as present as possible with all of my people so that they feel supported but also not burning myself at both ends so that I feel supported. It’s been a real tricky balance of finding stability in self care of myself, right, self care and then caring for others. So it’s like that day to day of responding. You know, you see those memes all the time where its like “sorry I responded a week later” Yes, I’m fine. The day to day the hardest part is just being present, really present.”