“It’s made me more morbid. My husband will come home and I’ll be crying and he’s like “what happened?” and I’m like “you know I’m gonna die some day and he’s gonna be left all alone” and he’s like “omg you can’t think like that”. I had a really hard hard time with intrusive thoughts. Postpartum anxiety. I had to go to therapy for it and one of the things I learned [to help] intrusive thoughts was it’s an actual moving meditation to say “I’m not going to make meaning of that thought”. It’s easy to meditate when you have quiet and no kid but taking that practice, that’s what it’s about right, moving it into real life even if it’s really hard – it kind of takes it to the next level.”
Barrett Prendergast of barrettandtheboys.com talks about her experiences within Motherhood.
“I didn’t have too many preconceived notions, I thought I would just be myself during this big transition in my life but I think once I got pregnant I changed. From the moment I knew I was going to become a mother I became a different person in that process and I think a lot of it was knowing that it’s not just about me anymore, it was about somebody else. As most people are, I was a people pleaser. I wanted everybody to like me you know, if that’s work or professional or person, whatever it was and I think the moment I was pregnant I realized I had to start sticking up for myself because if I didn’t do it for myself I couldn’t do that for her. That was the biggest game changer for me in becoming a mother. That I learned to trust my instincts more, stand up for what I believe in, open my mouth if I need to which was something I probably struggled with prior to Motherhood.”
“A lot, unfortunately. People I thought would have been in my life more strongly now seem to not be there as much and I’ve been finding new relationships. For me it was a very hard time becoming a parent two months before a pandemic hit and I know there are plenty of other mamas out there who understand what that feels like but it was extremely isolating and upsetting. There were lots of things that my postpartum body needed to be taken care of and I didn’t necessarily have resources. Thankfully for me it was a little more on the physical end than the mental end but there were a lot of friends and family that I wished had reached out and had been closer that weren’t. And that’s okay. I think everyone is dealing with things in their own way and I’d say the positive for me has been finding new relationships and maybe that’s just, ya know, your life.”